another untitled.

I tried to find a thousand reasons why I should hate you.

Maybe I should hate you because my mom told me so...
she cries days to days,,telling me she hates you and I should hate you too but I cant.
Maybe I should hate you because I did care a lot,,
and I know that at some point you cared about me too, but then you just quit caring.
Maybe I should hate you because I betrayed the love of my life for your sake,
and I served my heart on a fine plate for you..and I lost him but I did not have you either.
Maybe I should hate you because I loveD you,,
but you never told me what you feel, neither what you want..
Maybe I should hate you because I gave all my best to you,,
All my very best that I could never fight it back, and only to you I gave my very best.
Maybe I should hate you because finally Daddy told me that I should..
he told me you're a beast and the beauty should never be in love with the beast.


I tried to find a thousand reasons why I should hate you.
But I just can't.
I can't.
The more and more I try
The more my heart resists.
The more and more you hate me
The more and more you try to ruin me.
The more I know that I never hate you.
And I am sorry to make you think that I hated you so that it made you hate me.
I never regret you.
only
Stronger. You made me.

"And I give up forever to touch you. Cause I know that you feel me somehow. You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be and I dont wanna go home right now...
And I dont want the world to see me, cause I dont think that they'd understand and when everything's made to broken, I just want you to know who I am...-goo2dolls-"

January, 2009

// For him, whom I never owned yet distantly devoted //